Broken Hearted - In Need of Prayer

I know it has been forever since we have made a post. I have tons of great updates to add, but right now I need to post some negativity (sorry), but I just really despirately need some prayer right now.

About 3 weeks ago my sister was released from LifeTECH (the detention center where she was serving her time). We all recognized that the road ahead was going to be long and difficult for her, but we had confidence she would make it because her attitude had changed so tremendously.

Once again, we have been let down. Friday she left my mom's house with my mom's credit card and several pieces of her jewelry which she used to fund yet another drug and alcohol relapse/binge. When she finally decided to show back up Sunday evening, my mom, as difficult as it must have been for her, stayed true to her word and kicked her out of the house. She even went so far as to change the locks.

As you can imagine, we are all completely heartbroken. It has now been close to 15 years that we have been on this rollercoaster. We have been praying with every ounce of strength in our bodies for Jennifer's salvation and recovery. We have tried everything. We know that it is not in our power but hers and God's, which is why I am illiciting prayer from everyone I know. I KNOW that God is in control and He is bigger than any addiction, and I honestly believe that if enough people petition Him for her salvation and recovery that He will be faithful.

PLEASE PLEASE also pray for my family, especially my mom. My mom is the most amazing woman. I love her with all my heart. She has been the best mother I could ever have asked for, and she does not deserve this heartache. I don't think that I have ever seen her happier than a few weeks ago when she got to spend the day shopping with my sober, happy, hopeful sister. I don't think that I have heard her more disappointed and heartbroken than yesterday when she had to kick her out of the house. My mom has also recently re-devoted her life to Christ and I really need your help praying that this does not damage the new foundation of faith in her life.

Please also pray for their safety. Surely you have heard or seen on television the effects of drugs on a person's personality and actions. I have seen it first hand. When my sister is drunk or high, she is pure evil. She is violent and aggressive. I worry for my mom and my grandparent's safety both at the hand of her and the hands of her less than trustworthy friends.

Pray for Bill. He had just begun to open his heart to her again, and now I fear that, no matter what, it will be shut to her forever.

Finally, please pray for me. I am struggling right now to keep up hope. I feel like I am about at the end of my strength. I know the strength will come from God - it will have to. I have always turned to songs to help me through tough times. Sometimes when I can't express my emotions in my own words, God will lay a song on my heart that expresses it perfectly. Right now that song is Mike'sChair "Let the Waters Rise." I am not sure the chorus fits becuase I can not find the faith right now to ask that the storm waters rise even higher, but I think that the first verse fits perfectly.

"Don't know where to begin
It's like my world's caving in
And I tried but i can't control my fear
Where do I go from here

Sometimes it's so hard to pray
You feel so far away
I am willing to go where You want me to
God I trust You"

I can not thank you all enough for your love and support. Hopefully, we will see a rainbow at the end of this terrible storm.